i'm back!!

here i am..once again back to this blog
long time din't write blog dy
whenever i write my blog..it is my emo time
and why i emo?nothing but surely because of "love"
a bit bored about this topic -.-lll
but no choice..this is the only place where i can release my feelings
although i have bunches of best friends..i don't use to tell them

at the beginning after my friends knew about her existance..i really thought i could stand a chance
all the long way i had tried to get closer to you
all the things i had done for you
care your stuffs more than mine
although i knew that i am not the only one person who chase after you
in the end i realised that i was wrong

first time knowing his comments on your photo..second time..third time........
i was trying to convince myself that it is just a comment from a closed friend
until i found out that you had blocked me in some of your post
i borrowed my friend's account to look for those posts
done..it is all done

i have stopped myself from contacting you
stalking your account without leaving any comment or giving a like
i am just looking at your back in our every same class

再见了

我不希望的事终于发生了
原来我并没有自己想象的大方
能够坦然地祝福你们
虽然交谈中祝福你们
但我仿佛心如刀割
很痛～
脑海中不断浮现出你和他的照片
我真的很不愿意接受这事实
但这是你的决定
毕竟我又不是你的谁
我也无可奈何

现在我很怕
很怕你们出现在我面前
我不知该用如何的心情对着你们
我怕我中途会按奈不住离开
所以我想暂时不见你们会比较好吧

别担心
我会好起来的～

14/2/2012 的心声

就这样我又离开了
回到了一处见不着你的地方


2月14日 情人节
考虑了很久
到最后还是没向你表白
算了～离回大学还有两天
或许这两天里会拿出些勇气来
可惜时间如箭穿梭
转眼便来到了我离开的前一晚
当晚我们有个小聚会
看完了戏便踏上归家之路
路途中看着你的背影
真的很想伸手抱着你
告诉你我真的很喜欢你 
在大学里如神推鬼磨似的
一直回想起以往和你度过的时刻
怡保～到处充满着你的回忆

我真的很喜欢你！！！
我真的很想念你！！！

读后感

刚看完了“那些年，我们一起追得女孩”
好可惜哦~男女主角没能在一起
但我还是蛮羡慕男主角的
他能够有一个真心喜欢他的女孩
有时候我会想
如果我是那男主角那该有多好啊
哪怕在一起只是短短的几个月
不过可以的话当然长长久久是最好啦

好啦
虽然只是短短的读后感
但是使我联想到了很多以往的事
我喜欢的女生们啊
你们可要幸福啊~

晚安咯~=）

错的人

爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身


直觉告诉我，你是错的人
打从一开始是我一厢情愿
把感情毫无保留地奉献了给你
一开始我就做了错误的选择:'(

新的一页

终于有机会 update blog 了
现在已经八月头了...那也代表着我即将去吉打了...
唉~第一次出门出那么久呢...还真有点不舍得...
最不舍得我的朋友们了~
自从毕业后朋友就日继减少...现在要上大学了大家更是分道扬镳
不知何时能再聚
唉~~
什么都还没准备好呢...文件啦...衣服啦...日用品啦...etc...太多啦
都不知道要怎么带去
带去了又担心怎么摆放这些东西>.<
现在每天都在幻想...到底我去了那儿会怎样
希望到时我能睡得着
因为我曾试过在外失眠>.<
同时也担心着功课我能应付得来吗??未知数


在这儿当然少不了谈感情事
我可是有“为女死”的称号呢...拜嘉顺所赐=.=
现在给你们介绍我的新对象啦~
她也是即将上大学了...在吉隆坡
所以当初就很傻...祈祷希望可以拿到吉隆坡的大学...
虽然知道机会很渺茫...
所以呢...当我知道我拿到吉打我也蛮失望的=p
她呢...虽然样貌不算很出众...
可是她的成绩可是一等一的标青...全级第一
真人不露相 @@
所以你们说啊...什么都没有的我凭什么去喜欢人呢~
我并不是说我以前喜欢过的人不优秀
只是我现在才清醒...原来我什么都没有...
没知识~没样貌~更没钱
所以啊...我还在犹豫呢~


好啦...这篇到此为止吧...就此搁笔=p

....

我要忘记。。。祝我好运。。。 >.<

Sorry That I Loved You

For all of the time that i tried for your smile

For making you thing that i was worth the while

So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand

That no one was there to take you stand

But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that i have done to you

I wish that i can make it right

So sorry that i loved you

Sorry that i needed you

Sorry that i held you tight

And I'm So sorry for

Making you love me and saying goodbye

For being the one that taught you how to cry

It was love love love and it passed us by

For given you everything that you dreamed

For taking it back when i fled the scenesorry love for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that i have done to you

I wish that i can make it right

I'm so sorry that i loved you

Sorry that i needed you

Sorry that i held you tight

And apology now after all of this time

Won't make any difference tonight

But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind

To love love love love in your life

Sorry that i hurt you

Sorry that i fell through

Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that i have done to you

I wish that i could make it right

So sorry that i hurt you

Sorry that i fell through

Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

I'm sorry that i loved you

I'm sorry that i hurt you

I'm so sorry that i loved you

I'm sorry that i hurt you

Sorry that i loved you

终结

看来我的事情也该告一段落了
前阵子的不开心也该全抛到九霄云外了
因为我知道这事儿是不能勉强的
常说道 “勉强是没有幸福的”
唉~只能叹句有缘无份~
既然不能升级
那便留级吧~
但我不希望是降级


*虽然我还是很想升级 :(

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ

心中太多想吐的东西了！！！

可到了这儿却写不出来了...唉~

机会？？

过去的种种时刻，现在的我已学会如何珍惜...

过去的我已随心死而消失于人世间...

现在，崭新的我因你的存在而诞生了...

回想起与你共度的时刻，那是多么的美好啊！

我也在不知不觉中微笑了，因为那回忆里充满了你的笑容...

如果时间尽在我掌握之中，我会将时间倒流，并停留在那段时间...

至少对现在的我而言，那时刻是如此珍贵，多么的无价...

在我心中，那期间的快乐已非我手中的笔墨所能形容了...

现在我只盼能问你一句 ：“可以给我机会吗？”

看不到你我就迷失了自己

有时候你很调皮

总是让我着急

一颗心总是为你跳不停

只要一闭上眼睛

总有千百万个你

你的影子装满我的脑海里

不能够不想你

也不能够忘记你

总是在梦里一直看到你

多想对你说句

我是真的爱你

对我的心不要再怀疑

好想牵你的手

走过风风雨雨

有什么困难我都陪着你

直到天长地久

直到天荒地老

**也许能代表我的心情吧 :-)

Love is like WAR

easy to begin but very hard to stop

My Past

i hav undergone my 1st love..since standard 4..ridiculous rite?ya..i noe..i oso duno y tat time i hav such a feeling..i hav confess 2 her few times bt all hav been rejected..n during form 5 i hav found out tat she love my fren bt nt me..there was a time i m quite sad..n after sumtime i finally can let her go..haha..bt nvm..tats all pass dy..

vry luckily i hav found my 2nd love after a month starting form 6 life..she is quite a nice gal (at least 4 me :P)..there was a time v go everywhere 2gather until ppl say tat v r dating..haha..i hav 2 apologise bcoz making her embarrassing..i think at tat time she haven noe tat i like her..until v hav a

class performance..i jealous bcoz there were sum scene she had 2 hold her hands 
wif other guys..finally i cant stand 4 it anymore..i brace up myself 2 confess 2 her..
the result is same as my 1st love..haiz..i fail again..she told me tat she nvr think tis
 b4 n nw she juz wan concentrate in her study..

i hav fully-trusted in tis 4 almost 1 year..unluckily i hav found out tat she has found 
a bf in tis year..tis reali hurt me..tis onli shows me wat she told me last year is a lie..

XXX XXX,i duno y u wan lie 2 me..bt dun worry..i noe wat 
shud i do..

**hope u having a happy life...

我爱的人

我爱的人 不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人

她真幸福 幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能

每当听见 她或他说“我们”

就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声